Learning to hold my own hand. God, don't touch me back.. Learning to hold little 5 year old me, little 7 year old me. Sitting screaming on that dirty carpet. Filthy no good carpet. Sitting with her hands up for all that world that went there. Sitting with those hands up. One of my first memories was looking at my hand in my mother's bedroom mirror and realizing in my small young brain how big my hand looked compared to how small I'd thought it was. Whose hands are these now? What am I touching
They are smaller than ever but look gigantic, mannish in photos.
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Someone told me think of myself as a child with a stomach ache and how would I feel about her? To hold the same kind of compassion for myself during this time in my life. Here's the thing, I was disgusted by the image of a small, young me. Especially with a stomach ache. What does it say.
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