Tuesday, March 19, 2013


Last night in a dream I was at a large banquet dinner. Everyone was dressed very well under the soft, warm lights..all of us seated very close to one another. I was wearing a long shiny dress and rings shined from each of my long fingers. Steve Martin was seated to my left and laughed earnestly at my jokes, he loved them. I thought he was great. When I woke up, I had a message waiting, telling me "your dad's in jail again." Dear God,
I GET IT. KEEP EM COMING-

Friday, March 15, 2013

(formerly known as flux or the bloody flux)


Two girls by a wood
whisper "nothing's changed"
(but nothing could)

When come question
(if ever wayfare wrought)

what should?

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Now i know why i never wanted to hear what you were singing that everybody liked so much

Tuesday, March 5, 2013


"I don't know if this is something that other girls have experienced and I don't think it will be considered strange or anything, but...Watching a man (or anyone, really) eat an ice-cream sandwich. Oh my God, it's better than porn. Because usually they will be eaten slowly, to the point where they melt and

you have to lick between the outsides to avoid dripping.I remember the first time really enjoying it was in high school. Our high school sold them for $1. After I realized how hot this was I would offer to buy them for the boys I liked. What a perv.

Edit to add that I'm married and my husband knows about my little secret. So, occasionally and not enough to ruin it, he buys a box of them and slowly tortures me."

Monday, March 4, 2013

appel du vide

Kierkegaard uses the example of a man standing on the edge of a tall building or cliff. When the man looks over the edge, he experiences a focused fear of falling, but at the same time, the man feels a terrifying impulse to throw himself intentionally off the edge. That experience is anxiety or dread because of our complete freedom to choose to either throw oneself off or to stay put. The mere fact that one has the possibility and freedom to do something, even the most terrifying of possibilities, triggers immense feelings of dread. Kierkegaard called this our "dizziness of freedom."