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ma·nia definition
Pronunciation: /ˈmā-nē-ə, -nyə/
Function: n
: excitement of psychotic proportions manifested by mental and physical hyperactivity, disorganization of behavior, and elevation of mood


Ma·ni·a
   /ˈmeɪniə, ˈmeɪnyə/ Show Spelled[mey-nee-uh, meyn-yuh] Show IPA
–noun
an ancient Roman goddess of the dead.

I was working when i heard the girls were leaving. I was at work when owen meany cut off johnny's trigger finger with the diamond wheel. I was at work when i realized i've been victimizing myself since the day i was born, and realizing that maturing is believing yourself an angel, forsaken. The ability, choice, to go over it. Not to grin and bear, but to love regardless. To love the hurt, you have to. The hurt love brings is strongest of them all. Sink not, helpless babe

Doing the ladder

We were made to stand. not kneel , or fall. doing the latter and ashamed of myself, as usual

saturday the 14th

I'm lost without you.


get me out of here

"old man take a look at my life

Born lonesome

China my china" (open -ended

BETRAYED, DIED TO BE. we lived according to death, obsessed with it. we were young and obsessed with death. great to be obsessed, i guessed. great to be consumed, over consuming. Take me before i take you. DELIVER ME, else i kill you and cry for all the rest of it. KILL ME and i die taken.
this morning i gave hispanic

I get drunk and type freely, but only of ending. truth is, i can't stop beginning